Today I realized that this expression can clearly define what I´ve being doing to myself since I first entered college. At first, I´m always pretty sure about my choices: If I´m studying Civil Engineering it´s because I want to be a Civil Engineer, I know what he does and I´ve done some talking with real ones to know how they feel about their profession, but then, out of sudden, during the first third of the course I get completely demotivated in front of all difficulties and it sounds easier to me to come to the conclusion that I don´t like the course and that I probably won´t enjoy that profession as well. But so far the problem isn´t so big, after all, we can´t keep studying what we don´t like, it just goes against the right reasons of doing something.
My major problem is in not being disciplined even when I´m completely sure that I´m doing what I like and there´s nothing else I´d rather being doing instead. What happens is that I get myself too much committed to what I like, and I generally like more than two things at once, so I get hardly devoted to a lot of things at the same time. In the beginning, while I´m still full of energy and absorbed by the shine of those new things and can handle them. It works perfectly well for me when I find myself stuck into a routine. If everyday I do the same things at the same time I could keep doing it endlessly, but as we all know, things are always changing, and when I´m not able to do that thing I used to do at a certain time because I really have to do something new instead, then the risk of stop doing that old thing just because I left that cycle is huge. What´s worse is that I actually like that thing and I miss doing it, but I just don´t have the required courage to take the first step again. This can be applied to almost everything I do: studies, this blog, my workouts on gym, and even to friends.
You probably must be thinking that I have a laziness issue. But it is not, I like working, it makes me feel great. There´s nothing that happier to me than seeing a well done job being finished, and It doesn´t need to be something special, I become proud of finishing a homework, a research, a physical exercise and even a set of dishes in my mom´s kitchen sink. My big problem is about DISCIPLINE, I need it, and it won´t be a well done schedule that will give it to me, I have already tried to set time to things that need to be done, but I can cheat on me again and keep postponing my scheduled times. Only routine and discipline can oblige me, and I certainly have to be stronger in what concerns the discipline. I´d better start to think about things that have to be done as they were unable to be done tomorrow: or I do them today or I won´t have another opportunity. After all, most of us (and I´m included there) don´t know how to appreciate the value of one thing until the day we lose it.
My major problem is in not being disciplined even when I´m completely sure that I´m doing what I like and there´s nothing else I´d rather being doing instead. What happens is that I get myself too much committed to what I like, and I generally like more than two things at once, so I get hardly devoted to a lot of things at the same time. In the beginning, while I´m still full of energy and absorbed by the shine of those new things and can handle them. It works perfectly well for me when I find myself stuck into a routine. If everyday I do the same things at the same time I could keep doing it endlessly, but as we all know, things are always changing, and when I´m not able to do that thing I used to do at a certain time because I really have to do something new instead, then the risk of stop doing that old thing just because I left that cycle is huge. What´s worse is that I actually like that thing and I miss doing it, but I just don´t have the required courage to take the first step again. This can be applied to almost everything I do: studies, this blog, my workouts on gym, and even to friends.
You probably must be thinking that I have a laziness issue. But it is not, I like working, it makes me feel great. There´s nothing that happier to me than seeing a well done job being finished, and It doesn´t need to be something special, I become proud of finishing a homework, a research, a physical exercise and even a set of dishes in my mom´s kitchen sink. My big problem is about DISCIPLINE, I need it, and it won´t be a well done schedule that will give it to me, I have already tried to set time to things that need to be done, but I can cheat on me again and keep postponing my scheduled times. Only routine and discipline can oblige me, and I certainly have to be stronger in what concerns the discipline. I´d better start to think about things that have to be done as they were unable to be done tomorrow: or I do them today or I won´t have another opportunity. After all, most of us (and I´m included there) don´t know how to appreciate the value of one thing until the day we lose it.
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